My worries

For me it has always been a challenge to be myself. Everytime i am leaning on to someone they just seem to disappear so for me it is hard to trust people. My own thoughts are suffocating me bacause i can not seem to be able to  find a person to discuss them with. I have been struggling ever since i can remember from when my journey began if ican call it that. It has been a long time now that my only wish has been to seek a way of how to be satisfied with my achievements. Still am i searching for the day when i have achieved my goals. Once in a while when i feel like i am succeeding i fail again. It is very tiring to rise up but fall again My hope and wish is to someday get where i want with the result i hope for.   So in the end i have to hold on till i am able to succeed.